Moonlight Tracks

The moon slipped
into my prints left in the sand
from following your heat on the beach,
to catch just one whisper
before you went away.

Everytime I forgot where the stars slept
you would open your eyes
and remind me.

I like this game... hahaha

Person #1: I am a depressive who punches holes in walls. I am miserable b/c my parents practically lock me in my house. I am 'obsessed' about a girl and have problems with my religion or lack there of. I am mildly schizophrenic meaning I have conversations with myself when I'm alone. That's what loneliness does to you. I think about suicide as revenge on my friends who seem to have abandoned me and my only happiness comes from a fantasy world I've created. I'm constantly on the brink of a nervous breakdown b/c of BPD and I am also attention-seeking b/c it seems like no one cares when I crash. One part of me is self-piting, the other is self-hating. I am indecisive and mean. Hopelessness is my life.

Person #2: I don't like getting involved in the soap opera that is my circle of friends. I am antisocial and indecisive. I have more friends on the internet than in real-life. I mumble and I am also not good with girls. My parents make me mad. I also suck at driving.

Person #3: I think I'm right about most things. My friends are asses, but I'm always willing for them to come back to me. It's not like I'm ever at fault. I am depressed sometimes, but most of the time I'm happy. Some of my friends aren't, but good things can't happen to everyone can they? I'm pretty logical and I'm usual right. Wait, I already said that. Yep, I'm right. And before you say it, I am not self-righteous. I just end up being right a lot.

Person #4: I have to be funny. All the time. It makes me feel good about myself. I make jokes about people even if it's extremely mean. Some days I'm horribly sad and some days I'm extremely happy, it all depends on the mood swing. I just live my life day to day b/c physical pleasure and things like that result in contentment I think. I enjoy attention. I enjoy it a lot!

Person #5: I have to win this! If I don't, I'll probably roll up in a ball and cry b/c its everything to me! Same with pretty much all my goals. If I don't accomplish one of them, I will be depressed. If I don't get a 99 in English, I will cry. And if I don't, I'll be depressed about some other small failure.

Person #6: Woohoo I'm happy. Even though I'm doomed in the search for a boyfriend (who absoutely has to be perfect), I'm still content. For me, I believe temporal happiness results in inner contentment. Religion? Who cares, it's all nonsense for little kids. I am ignorant about such things and really don't want to think about such matters like death or religion until it smacks me in the face. Some of my friends are depressives and sad, but I don't let them bother me. I'm sometimes accused of abandoning friends, but that's dumb. If you can't deal with the way I am, get the fuck away. But I'm happy. Even with all the stress and things. I let it get to me once, but never again! Happiness! Everyone should be happy just like me. Woohoo.

That was interesting. Now, remind me never to do that again.

And I meant everything I said tonight.. thank you for letting me be a part of something huge for four years. I love you all!